Hey everyone! Well, I normally do not blog but here goes! Scarlett was very nice in helping me set up my blog. She suggested that I do it because I have been struggling with some things lately. She thinks that it might help me in getting my mind off some things and she is probably right. I don't want to scare anyone, nothing is seriously wrong I have just been dealing with some things. I have been through so much the last 2 years with the surgery during pregnancy, the delivery, then all of the physical problems and surgeries following. I think that I have just let everything build up and I finally feel like I am going to explode! I have a wonderful husband and mom that I can talk to that are so supportive, but still I feel like I am going to explode. We want another baby so badly but it is so scary. I am so afraid that I will have the same kidney problems that I had the first time around. The doctors are telling me baby or hysterectomy because of my female problems. I am struggling. It is not cool to have to make that kind of decision at 27 years old. I am in need of some good emotional support right now. I know there are worse things that could happen but I've always been the type to want 3 or 4 kiddos running around, and Richard too :)